Away for a bit

Yep, again I've been away.  Yet so much has happened!

I set my intentions to win the lottery - and then watched it unfold.  I had joked with my husband that he kept getting losing tickets so he should let ME get them.  I bought $5 on the MegaMillions and we WON!  I couldn't believe it ... we WON the lottery.  OK... it was only $7... but just looking from the perspective that we came out ahead - we WON!  I then found 2 other tickets on my desk, some older ones... and we WON on both of them as well!  In the end we got $13 from those tickets. 

So I cashed them in, so excited to have won the lottery, and got some more tickets.  The next day I got $5 in instants as well.  And....  we WON again!  This time to the tune of $45!  It just reinforces to me that there is plenty of money out there - plenty for me - and it comes to me easily.  The flow of money IS just energy and it flows to me like the air that I breathe.  Always plentiful and always what I need. 

I must say that this new attitude has made me relax much more about the bills.  My cell phone bill is almost $500 and I dont' worry about it.  I know the money is coming for it.  And then we got our gas bill.  I didn't pay it last month so its over $1100.  When my husband told me how much he said he knew I would stress and freak out.  Instead I told him, "That's ok.  The money is on its way, we'll have no trouble paying it."  and walked away.  He just looked at me strange and asked if I was ok.  I told him, "of course," and walked away. 

Its a wonderful thing to just not stress out about things.  The universe provides as we require it.  Money DOES flow as easily as the air that we breathe.  And life is wonderful!

The "official" game

I opened my e-mail to find a wonderful letter from "The Universe" to kick off the game.  It is amazing how I felt just reading it....

Monday 18th January 2010
Dear Mary Today's deposit:
_______________________________________
Amount: $1000 - One Thousand Dollars
Deposited into: Your Account
From: The Bank of the Universe
_______________________________________

Dear Beloved One, Since you are so loved and cherished, we, at the Bank of the Universe have decided to deposit money into your account for the rest of your life.
This is not a loan and we do not expect this money to be paid back - it is our gift to you, just for being you! All we ask, is that as you go through your day, you look for ways to spend this money that will give you joy. You may use this money in any way you desire.
It is preferable that you SPEND the money, rather than saving it for later, as we will continue to send you more and more money each week. It is also preferable that you spend this money on yourself.

Well, it came late on Monday, so I didn't get a chance to spend it.  Then Tuesday came and went - and I had forgotten about it.  Well... today's deposit came, with a much shorter note.

Wednesday 20th January, 2010
Dear Mary,
Today's deposit:
______________________________________
Amount: $2000 - Two Thousand Dollars
Deposited into: Your Account
From: The Bank of The Universe
______________________________________
Lovely..... more money to enjoy.

I'm off to spend my money!  I am excited to find new ways to spoil myself.

I have gotten hubby involved in the game, in a secret kind of way.  I ask him to play "Wouldn't it be nice if..." to get him thinking more of prosperity instead of his usual doubt.  Hoping that can get him pushed in the right direction - maybe a little excitement with spending money will get it moving. 

I did have a revelation yesterday... Almost like a smack upside the head and someone talking directly to me yesterday.  If *I* want this prosperity... If *I* want the lottery winnings or what have you... Then *I* need to be the one buying the tickets. 

Off to spend my $3000... back with a report shortly.

Idea

I don't know if there is a way to upload video to Blogger, but I had an idea to compliment my "Prosperity Game" fun.  I am downloading Windows Movie Maker (because Win7 doesn't come with it, unlike every one before it) and I will put pics, day by day, of what I've purchased.  Then, over the month, I can see what I've bought and work on a rampage of appreciation as well as relive the fun I had while shopping.

Every month gets a new video. 

Another exciting bit of fun.

Excited

It really is strange how this "game" has excited me.  Changed my thoughts from "wow, that's a lot" to " WOW, that's all??"

The local Community College is where my HS Senior expects to attend classes the next 2 years.  I had been stressing about paying that a short time ago, because I know my ex husband will not be bothered to contribute.  But my new attitude (and the prosperity game) took me to their site - and it looks like 2 semesters of tuition is ONLY $1680!  I can pay for the whole 48 credit hours - 2 years - and it will cost less than $3500.  That is NOTHING.  We can easily afford that.  I'm so happy to do the math and find how little it will cost me! 

I just spent the better part of 2 hours planning an awesome birthday/anniversary trip for my husband in October to Las Vegas.  I was amazed to find that a junior suite at The Signature @ MGM along with flights and a rental is less than $1300.  I'm off to go look at shows, etc to further plan the trip.  Before I would have been looking at prices first, but this time I looked at customer satisfaction and luxury feel look first.  Pretty exciting to be planning this trip.  So far I've planned a $1300 weekend getaway to Cali and a $1300 weekend getaway to Vegas for us.  Hmm... coincidence?  Or the Universe taking a moment to acknowledge that I'm headed the right way.  Either way - I'm excited at the possibilites that await.

Attitudes changing... more excitement on the way.  And I'm only on day 2 of the game!

Prosperity Day 2

Wow... I never realized how much fun it can be to go shopping and not look at price tags.  Today I spent my $1000 universe cash at Macy's and on a trip to Chicago for this weekend.

At Macy's I bought a blue/black pair of "Not my daughter's jeans" that are absolutely gorgeous.  They fit so well and the tummy panel is great.  To go with it I got a soft and comfy cowl neck sweater, actually 2 of them - one in red and one in purple.  The reviewers all said it was a warm and cozy kind of sweater and boy were they right.  I really like them, and they look great paired with the new jeans.  While I was there I bought a Coach purse.  Yeah, I don't usually go for purses, but I figure the new look will go great with a new black purse.  Its gonna be a little rough to get used to carrying a purse again, but then I don't have keys and a phone, etc in my pocket while we walk around Chicago this weekend.  I only spent $365 at Macy's.

I reserved tickets at the Museum of Science and Industry for an Omnimax movie I think the kids will like, and paired with the admission tickets it was only $150.  Considering the new "Toys" exhibit coming this weekend and the other things the kids will like - its well worth it.  They'll be so excited.  Also booked a hotel for this weekend, so we don't miss anything up there.  I mean why drive home each day?  A nice 5 star hotel in the loop.  Maybe I can sneak some shopping in on Michigan Avenue while we're there.  Found a great restaurant I want to try too - Big Bowl.  The video looks great and so to the reviews.

The balance of today's Unverse Cash I am giving to Jesse to pick up random items for dinner so that I can cook on the fly.  It was so much fun to do that last night - why not try again. 

I have also planned a weekend getaway for next weekend for Jesse and I.  Haven't paid for it yet but no worries.  Flight leaves for Santa Ana at 6pm.  We're staying at Marriot Laguna Cliffs Resort in their nicest Costal View Room.  The view of the ocean will be wonderful compared to the view of the SNOW here.  I also reserved an SUV for the trips into the mountains.  All that is only $1300... I can't wait.  I will make sure to go to the Korean BBQ, and maybe the Brazilian BBQ while we're there. 

I can't wait to see what I find to buy tomorrow.

Starting Over

Christmas has come and gone, and while it wasn't exactly the way I wanted it - it was still pretty good.  Kids were happy.  In essence, my manifesting came through - it just ended up with some financial problems after due to my husband paying some of this mother's bills. 

But that is nether here or there... Its 2010.  A New year and a new start to the experiment.  I'm starting a "Prosperity Game" of sorts... the official one starts Monday and 3 days a week you get a "check" from the universe in your e-mail to spend.  Theoretically you are to spend it that day, at least spend it before you get the next one.  I was reading some people's comments on their game on a message board and it got me excited to shop (very weird for me...lol) so I decided to start practicing early.  I am only doing $1000 a day until Monday, but it is proving both fun and difficult.  I didn't even manage to spend all of it yesterday.  I've given myself the rule that it can not be spent on bills, but to relieve my mind I did "pay" my phone bill out of it.  Not sure where else the $500 ::gasp:: will come from except the universe.

So here starts the prosperity game and the evidence of manifestations. 

Yesterday I bought the cutest coat at Carson.  An Anne Klein coat in a light brown with a nice faux fur accent on the hood.  I also picked up some things from Top Chef, like the cookbooks and some knives.  Pretty cool.  Got Michael the "Culinary Boner" shirt he had been wanting as well.  Then I got an American Girl doll and accessories for AnneMarie.  Carl keeps telling her he'll buy them, so it felt awesome to just write the check and get them for her.  Can't wait to put them in her new room.  Should probably get a shelf or bookcase for her to put them on.  Will have to look for one today.  And then the balance of the money went to pay my cell phone bill.  I'm so amazed that I went through that many minutes - but it makes me happy to think that I had that many to talk to last month.  :)

My $1000 deposit is here, so I will go shopping and then report back.

Happy Manifesting

Something different

Recently in my manifesting journey I read about Abraham-Hicks and the 17 seconds.  The basics behind it is to concentrate thoughts on a solitary thing, with no counter-thoughts, for 17 seconds.  Seems pretty simple, right?  It really does take concentration.  It isn't easy to keep those "but..." thoughts out.  

I thought I would test it the other day, so I set myself somewhere quiet and thought of simple things.  One was about getting the brakes on my van done somehow, one was about seeing my own income coming in, and one was about losing some weight.  Nothing fancy, or so I thought.

The next day, I had no appetite.  When I got hungry, I was craving veggies, not junk.  I only had 1 can of Mountain Dew that day (usually its 5-6 per day).  I didn't think about it, really, until someone else pointed out my new "heathy kick."  It has continued for the past 3 - 4 days and I hope it keeps up.

Today my husband was home and a man came to ask about his truck.  I thought nothing of it until he told me that the man is a mechanic and they discussed a trade - the brakes on my van for the truck.  Since the truck hasn't been used in probably close to a year, it isn't any loss to us.  That's when it hit me that my latest 17 second tests had been at work. 

Good things are coming... and I can't wait to write all about it.

More things coming

Well,  in alignment with my experiment to manifest my own income, I have just been offered an opportunity to work with a friend through her site.  I have helped her in the past with copywriting and editing for her sites, and now she has offered the chance to promote that service to her customers.  The best part is... I will be working as an independent contractor through their site, so I don't have to struggle to get the customers or anything else.  They are doing the work, PLUS the service will be included in some of their web design packages.  She has 4 websites that she is working on right now, and told me that as soon as they approve the additional charges she will send me the work. 

Little by little I see things coming through.  I also see little roadblocks that are attempting to get in the way of my focus, but I am doing my best to push them aside and not let them get to me.  It seems that with each "distraction" something good shows up, so I welcome them now. 

While I haven't seen any money quite yet, I know that good things are coming. 

Happy Manifesting.

A few days in...

I've been focusing on my goal for a few days now, especially the feelings.  Yesterday I even wrote a "blog" entry in present tense about how nice it is to have my own money coming in, and spending it to spoil the kids for Christmas. 

I am seeing some odd things coming up.  While going through the kids backpacks I found a letter asking for donations for the silent auction at the school.  And my daughter's Jobies group is having a silent auction at their Spaghetti Dinner in a few weeks.  I know just what I want to put in the baskets for both of the events already, and just need the funds to purchase the items. 

So things are happening... and its only been a few days. 

I've decided...

I've been trying to figure out what to manifest and, in all honesty, nothing material really came to me.  And then I hit youtube again and saw a person named Momo who said that manifesting doesn't have to be for material things that mean nothing... and it hit me.

The one thing that I've been wanting for a long time... financial independence.  I want to be able to spend money that *I* have earned on what I want and not feel guilty that I am spending money that could/should go elsewhere.  So that is what I am going to manifest, an income of my own, the ability to spend my own money on whatever I want and not feel guilty or feel the need to justify it to anyone else.

Finally, the first step.  I have decided what I want.

Second step... visualize and feel the emotions behind it.
I know it will be exciting to go shopping and not have to worry about what I am buying.  To be able to spend MY money on things.  While the things I buy might just be extra things for the kids or more beads to play with or candles or whatever - its MY money and I can do what I want.  I am feeling this now... it feels great.  I have a peace about me right now.

Third step... the allowing.  THIS is my roadblock... Allowing isn't easy for me... I'm big on trying to figure out the HOW of things.  I need to relax and allow, work through inspiration and know that its coming.  I just know at this point how exciting it will be to spoil my kids, and my husband... and even people that I would not normally think deserve it. 

So on to mainifesting.  Tomorrow I'll work on more focus and fine tuning, and determining where the inspiration takes me.

I do have to say, I feel wonderful... I'm at peace.