I've decided...

I've been trying to figure out what to manifest and, in all honesty, nothing material really came to me.  And then I hit youtube again and saw a person named Momo who said that manifesting doesn't have to be for material things that mean nothing... and it hit me.

The one thing that I've been wanting for a long time... financial independence.  I want to be able to spend money that *I* have earned on what I want and not feel guilty that I am spending money that could/should go elsewhere.  So that is what I am going to manifest, an income of my own, the ability to spend my own money on whatever I want and not feel guilty or feel the need to justify it to anyone else.

Finally, the first step.  I have decided what I want.

Second step... visualize and feel the emotions behind it.
I know it will be exciting to go shopping and not have to worry about what I am buying.  To be able to spend MY money on things.  While the things I buy might just be extra things for the kids or more beads to play with or candles or whatever - its MY money and I can do what I want.  I am feeling this now... it feels great.  I have a peace about me right now.

Third step... the allowing.  THIS is my roadblock... Allowing isn't easy for me... I'm big on trying to figure out the HOW of things.  I need to relax and allow, work through inspiration and know that its coming.  I just know at this point how exciting it will be to spoil my kids, and my husband... and even people that I would not normally think deserve it. 

So on to mainifesting.  Tomorrow I'll work on more focus and fine tuning, and determining where the inspiration takes me.

I do have to say, I feel wonderful... I'm at peace.